MIND IT!!

Friday, November 27, 2009

10:22 PM

Hi! I just want to make use of my precious time while I'm still not sleepy. I don't know if my sentence is correct or the use of words are right but I'm telling you, I think I'm a better writer now. LOL. So, let us start this before I say goodnight. There are so many things that are running in my mind and sometimes I think that I am great because of that. Like now. I always want to be the better, if not, the best. But not all the time! Only when I feel to. Am I talking weird? No. I'm not. I assure you! I'm just really too expressive of my feelings and I always prefer to write whatever is on my mind. Okay, so let me just enumerate the things that are bothering me, actually not bothering…they're just thoughts. Haha. So now, there are all gone! Joy just came in and all the thoughts that I was thinking were all gone! I don't take them now as big deal. But to kill the excitement of the reader is not my thing. So, I'll continue anyway. (no one reads this. So if you are reading this, then you're lucky)

WORRIES (before)/THOUGHTS/ANYTHING/IRRELEVANT

My laptop has a problem! I'm not sure if it's the audio speaker. I guess not. But I've been hearing some kind of a "soft thunder" sound since yesterday and I'm worried it might get worse. While I was watching Scary Movie 3 "that" sound never ceased! And it was the first time it did not stop. It's really cricking damn! But now, it's gone. I don't know when to go for consultation on the store where I bought this or if there is a need for me to go there! So freaking ass.

There I go…. Here are the thoughts coming back.

Sometimes I really look at myself so dull and gray. Just an ordinary, assuming, and trying hard person who cries when seeing a sad movie. And sometimes and more often, like now, I think of myself like I'm really good! Artistic in everyway, intelligent, creative, has a good sense of everything! You know, sometimes I think I'm all. But of course not and I know I will never be. There's nothing wrong with thinking by the way. You know, I talk a lot. I think I know many things and I feel that I really have this good senses like I know what is going to happen but not like a premonition or whatever supernatural. It's just I think, I think better. That I always know what should be done or not and what might happen or not. Do you get my point? And I'm really good in reading minds or knowing the attitude of a person just at first meeting. Maybe that is the reason why I wanted to take up psychology and I'm always excited about it before and still now but not very anymore. Well, I'm going far from what I want to give emphasis on but this one I'm talking about is part of my thoughts. Just as I was writing the sentence before this, I found out how powerful and amazing the mind is and I guess this is what God wants me to know that is why he asked me to go open my laptop because I'm going to discover an important thing. You know, we learn from ourselves when we listen thoroughly to what really our minds are trying to say. O.MG. I think Plato and Aristotle and all other philosophers have affected the way I think. LOL! But what I speak of now are all true because I'm speaking of myself. Who would know yourself best? It's you and you alone. Do you want me to continue? Okay. Going back to the "thoughts" that I'm really referring to. The dull and the creative one. I sometimes think I'm dull and nothing when... I think I am like those. (again, mind speaks!) What I was thinking lately about this is that I think I'm dull because sometimes inside the classroom, there are many greater kids than me and they are even better in expressing what they want to say in better language than me where in fact, in reality I think and I think so, that the way I think is a lot better than them and I guess that is the reality according to my mind. But just as I was writing the statement above, the one when I said I think I'm dull..the thought "when I think I am" came rushing into my mind where in fact, it is not really what I want to say and I've said it. You see how powerful the mind? Even your own thoughts opposes it. GREAT RIGHT? But there is even greater than that. The one who made it. :) so, have a nice sleep darling.

I think I've said it all. I'm sleepy. The main point is MIND IS POWERFUL AND AMZING. IT MAKES YOU CRAZY. I love my mind!

Let me say something important before totally ending this entry. Well, do you understand what I really meant or did you get the main point or in simplest question, do you understand the whole thing? It's okay if you can't. This entry is MY MIND from 10:22-11:06. I wasn't able to write all because I told you, mind is really great! It does great things even the impossible ones. But I'm glad I've written the summary of what I was thinking just thirty minutes ago. I told you, I just don't want to waste my precious time while I'm still not sleepy but now, I can feel it all over. GOODNIGHT.