Monday, November 23, 2009
4:24 PM
I admit. He is not the perfect boyfriend. He is not even the exact man that I wanted nor wished for. He gets angry easily. When he gets mad he could not think of any… All he knows is that he hates me for what I did. He is a kind of a bully, which I’m now used to. He is a crybaby. He breaks promises, he is not listening when I talk about nonsense, and he always seeks for equal affection and fair giving out about everything! He loves to gossip. He can’t keep secrets! He is loud and shy at the same time. He doesn’t want to see me quiet when I’m with him because he knows that it’s my way of saying “hindi na ko natutuwa sayo bwiset!” We argue about silly things and fight over the phone in the middle of the night trying to defend what we believe is right. He hangs up or I hang up and whoever hangs the phone up, will automatically call back again and restart the arguments where in fact, what we both want is just to end the fighting. We can’t sleep ‘till the problem gets okay. And in the morning, we’ll laugh at the thing we fought about and tease who cried! Sometimes we’re like children. He cries whenever I’m about to end our relationship. Though he knows that it will not happen, he still cries because he gets hurt. He gets jealous when I often tell him stories about whoever guy is close to me. He rejects my stories and changes the topic. He misses me when I’m about to leave. It makes him feel that I’m miles away from him. When I’m with him, He doesn’t let me sleep unless I lean on his chest. When we are walking, he always makes me feel that I’m safe and protected by the hold of his hand on mine. He kisses me like there’s no tomorrow. He gives me sweet hugs when I’m feeling cold or he feels that I’m sad and whenever he has the chance. He never fails to say I love you before I go to sleep. We share secrets, problems, insights, thoughts and everything. We know each other well. We are very good the friends. When I have worries or problems, he would normally sing to me or make me laugh and he always does well! All of my doubts and fears go away when I’m with him. It’s like everything I know suddenly vanishes and in one time, all I could think of is him and us. He gives me this feeling of security when we’re together. It’s like no harm will come my way because he’s there to protect me. Some may like him and some may not. Whichever way, I love him still. He is the man that I want to spend eternity with. I know there is no such thing as perfect but I believe he is the perfect one for me. I did not look for him nor did he come to me. We both found each other and for no reason, we fell in love. I didn’t expect this kind of feeling but now, it does. And I’m sure that it is love that exists between the two of us. Yes, it feels like cloud 9 but exactly, it feels like hell when nothing goes right. They say that is what it feels like and it’s true. Yes, there is no such thing as perfect and forever but love will make you strive to achieve it and make you believe that both things are real…
Maybe this sounds cheesy. Yes I know. Nobody reads this anyway. This is me who is genuinely writing my feelings freely………………...
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