It's Complicated

Thursday, April 22, 2010

10:57 PM

April 20 of this year, 10:54 pm, we broke up for no reason. If ever there is, it is complicated. I love him and he loves me. That is no news. That is more likely to be part of the history already. Me and him.

Today is April 27. And I'm really, really confused. I just texted him to say that I love him but I'm not in love anymore. So crazy! Last April 20, we broke up. That's what it said above. But the reason "why" can’t reach my mind. I just agreed on what he wants. He needs space. He said it. Yes. And I couldn't believe I was hearing that from him though the way he said it seemed like it's not a serious matter. But now I understand what he was talking about. It's about the feelings. It's not that we don't love each other anymore. We do. In fact, we do love each other very much. This feeling is so complicated. It confuses me badly!

Ooooooh I finally got the word to describe what I think we BOTH feel for each other. 'coz it's really complicated when I say we love each other but we don't. Nobody will get if I say that. So I think the most appropriate is that, WE FELL OUT OF LOVE BUT WE CARE ABOUT EACH OTHER VERY MUCH! With that, I can start to explain what I feel.

Okay. So, ………………………….. I cant finish this tonight because the flow of my thoughts was interrupted! ('coz I read some of my entries here in OneNote!) So, Maybe I'll continue this tomorrow? If I still feel the same. Lol. Feelings vary all the time!

Today is April 28. And all that I said on here is nothing but a BIG DRAMA! Hahahaha! Nothing's complicated. I love him. He loves me. And it will never change. END OF STORY. Haha! I'm just confused last night. I told you. Feelings vary all the time. But most often that not, what you really feel stands up and wins. :)) There it goes… Our strong love bagged it all.

Maybe the reason why I didn't get to finish this last night was because, everything on here doesn't just make sense and I don't have to prolong the issue because it's not real anyway.

BABY, FORGET WHAT I SAID. I LOVE YOU AND THAT IS THE TRUEST THING THAT YOU SHOULD PUT IN MIND ALWAYS :)